Please read Mark 8:1-10 first.
And Jesus went forth, and saw a great multitude, and was moved with compassion toward them, and he healed their sick. And when it was evening, his disciples came to him, saying, This is a desert place, and the time is now past; send the multitude away, that they may go into the villages, and buy themselves victuals. Matthew 14:14-15
If you really took time to observe your staff or those following you without them knowing it, you may find that some of them may not really understand what it is to be a servant and minister to God and the people. Those who assist you may have a concern for you and a commitment to you as the leader, but they lack the same for the souls: the true purpose behind the ministry events.
Are you surrounded by people dedicated to the work of The Lord but not The Lord of the work? Are they less likely to worship and pray without a crowd ? If so, maybe you should question whether they are imitating you or if they have they picked up your spirit? Are you so busy with ministry events that you fail to notice that your staff and supporters are falling by the way side; that they are arrogant and short-tempered with others (of course, not in your presence) or are failing to develop godly character and love for the least of these? And if you do notice, are you likely to give them disciplinary actions instead of ministering to them patiently? What seeds are you sowing and what kind of attention are you giving the plantings that are growing around you?
Jesus always took extra time away from the multitudes to teach his disciples on a deeper level. We can get so busy until we think that we can teach someone buy just allowing them to be in our glorious presence by serving us. Such arrogance should not be found in those called to teach or lead God’s people! People learn from both the Word we speak and the life we live before the crowds and behind the scenes. Sometimes, the lessons in the latter prevail.
Are we so busy with our ministry to world that we neglect our ministry to our family, friends and staff? Is it really the souls and the Kingdom of Heaven that is driving us or is it our need to make a name for ourselves. Have we given up what were the worldly lusts only to take on the same lusts with a pretty face or name on them? Are we driven by The Holy Ghost or by our own need to feel a sense of accomplishment and feel like we compare with others who say they have the same call or ministry?
Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross. Philippians 2:5-8
Do you have the same mind as Christ? Are your underlying motives to create or protect your reputation?
Oh beloved, the devil is sly and cunning and will even use seemingly good works to may you stray from the will of God. We must be careful to even avoid patterning ourselves after anyone one else’s ministry, no matter how successful it may appear to be. You have a course designed for you that God would have you to follow. And if you seek him, he will lead you down the path of success and fulfillment he has designed for you.
Remember, everyone did not accept Jesus nor was everyone healed by Jesus, yet he finished his course. Paul finished his course, but still, there were still some to whom he ministered who did not accept God. We must measure our success by God’s Word and seek His approval. He already loves us. We just need to love on him by trusting him and obeying his written word and the revealed word his personally gives us.
Whosoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it. Luke 17:33